The Last Moment... Words I Could Not Say...

by spring breeze

(translated by Romy Y. Chae ) 


Candy..

Blue sky and invigorating wind...

Today should have been the happiest day of our lives...

Isn't that right?

But... 

You are right there beside me

Calling out my name

With frightened look on your face and fear in your voice...

Anthony! Anthony!

.........

I am so sorry...

I cannot answer you...

I cannot even move...

Soon, I shall not be able to think at all...


So, Candy...

Please do not call out my name like that...

Your trembling, sorrowful voice keeps calling out my name...

But, I cannot even answer you...

There is nothing I can do for you...

That just breaks my heart and draws me into deep pain...

Pain that is more excruciating than

the physical pain spreading through my body...

What have I done in my life to deserve this?

Why is God taking me away now that I am finally happy...

Why is he taking me away from you...

Why can't he give me just little more time...

Giving me more time will not consequence the world...

I can't close my eyes knowing the depth of sadness you will have to endure...

For all the malicious words you will have to bear after my death, I am sorry...

I only wanted to make you happy

I only wanted to make you smile

You were crying when I first met you

And here you are crying as I leave you for the last time

I feel so helpless and limited.

But...

I...

I want to say how happy I have been because of you

Even though our time together was short

Because of you, I could have smiled

with genuine happiness from deep in my heart

And because of you, my roses could have been glorious

Yes...

Each day shined so bright because we were together...

Candy...

I liked you...

No...

I loved you...

People may say it was just a puppy love

But, I know...

You were the only love of my life...

It is not because my life has been short

Even if my life had been a long one

You still would have been my only love...

I knew of this from the first moment I saw you as you cried...

I shall regret not being able to prove my love to you

throughout my life...

But, I believe you know how I feel...

I am leaving you with so much heartache

Such heartache will be agonizing

And it may take a long time to heal

But in the end

Yes, in the end...

It will be healed...

Only a faint scar will remain

to remind you of the injury from a long time ago...

Time will turn an unbearable pain

into a misty memory...

I hope that day will come soon for you...

When that day come

you shall be able to smile as you think of me...

And finally then...

Even with a fragment of sorrow inside you

You may become happy again

That will be the day when my promise to you

will be fulfilled...

A promise to make you smile...


Candy...

I hope your life will not be a troubled one

I hope this sorrow I leave behind

will not last too long...

Do not forget...

You are prettier when you smile...

 
I am getting sleepy...

I think it is time for me to leave you...

Everything is getting hazy...

Our promise to be together...

All our unforgettable vows we cannot keep...

They are fading away...


No, this cannot be...

Just a little longer...

Just a little longer...

Forgive me for leaving you so suddenly...

I am glad I can share my last moment with you...


Goodbye... Candy...