Forget Me Never
by Mrscage & Gentillefille
New York
Dear
Candy,
I don't know how to start this letter... It's the fifth one that I
started to write, trying to find the right words but every time, it felt so
fake, so not right! I decided to write to you as directly as I can, leaving
aside all the courtesy words. I'm sorry Freckles if this letter shocks you, if
it is not like the ones you used to receive from Albert ,Georges or Sister Maria
and Miss Pony.
I don't know if you follow from the newspapers but I had
some difficulties after the day you left me in that hospital... I left the
theater and everything behind and came to find you in Chicago. But I guess I was
a coward, I used to think of myself as a strong and brave person but the last
events showed me how weak I can be... I was there, watching you working in Happy
Clinic ( the name of the clinic suits you so well, where else could work my
cheerful Tarzan!), you were smiling as always. You gave me the courage the go
back to my life. If you could deal with everything in your life, I said to
myself, I could deal with the bad things too. Your life was harder than mine but
you never gave up! Watching you there, seeing your smiling face made me realize
that I had a duty to fulfill.
It's been five months since then, I took
my job back, I'm shining as a star once again on Broadway. I went back to my
duty... Susanna is happy, she is getting better every day, I keep my promise to
you. I will marry her next year. We started to make the arrangements. I don't
have the heart to marry her but I guess this was the role that Fate wanted me to
play. I will play it. After all I'm an actor! And Susanna is a nice girl, she
saved me, I owe her so much...
It took me three months to decide to write
to you... Candy! Tell me, would you like to keep in touch with me? With letters?
I try to be strong but without you being a part of my life I just can't deal
with it. You made me open my heart, you made me destroy the walls that I built
around myself to protect me and now you are not a part of my life anymore. I
need you to be there even if I won't see you again. But who knows, as long as we
are alive, maybe we would meet again... Would it be too much to ask you to write
me back? We can not have the dreams we had, I can not have you as my wife... but
I want to have your friendship at least… I can not hear your voice maybe but if
I could just read a few words from you... What do you say? Do you want me to be
your friend? I know you have a busy life, you already built yourself a new life.
Maybe you will get married soon, I will get married soon. But if you could just
find the time to write to me a letter now and then, if I could be a part of your
life, if I could have news from you, I would be able to be complete again...
Without you in my life, I just feel that my other half is missing. I don't want
to have this big hole inside of me. Will you write me back?
If you don't
answer this letter, I promise not to bother you anymore, I just want to thank
you for the memories we shared. You're the reason of the changes in me, if I'm
more responsible now, if I consider other people's feelings before mine, it's
because of you. You made me a better person... a better person who suffers so
much.
Waiting for your answer,
With love
Your friend Terry