How did it end like this between Candy and Terry? What can happen next?
Chapter One: The fateful road to the break-up
Author's notes: With my story, I tried in these two chapters below, to make a logical journey to
the psychologies of the main three characters on the events leading to the
break-up and the aftermath of that dark night. I hope you enjoy it, it may make
you think that realisticaly Candy and Terry belong to each other.
Susanna: She did fall in love with an illusion of Terry, the Terry of his theatrical roles. He didn’t speak too much of himself or his private life which was creating a mystery. At times he seemed lost in his world without knowing what was happening around him and he was always shrouded by a light cloud of melancholy which disappeared only when he was on stage. He acted dreamy when he was playing his harmonica. He was though on the other hand, very polite and well-mannered, always ready to help everyone on the theatre group. He was unassuming, not pretending that he was something that he wasn’t, but also he was hiding an enormous passion. Susanna felt that underneath the cool exterior of Terry, there was a volcano simmering and that made him overly exciting. She was a new actress with wide eyes and was hooked on Terry, loving him in a fatal way. Because her illusion was getting bigger by the day, every polite gesture from Terry’s part was multiplied ten-fold in her mind, giving her hopes of love where there weren’t any. When she heard that Terry’s heart belonged to another girl, she was furious; she didn’t want to believe that someone else existed that had stolen Terry’s love from her embrace.
Luck took such a fatal turn that her accident gave her the edge over her opponent. Trusting Terry’s helpful and honest personality, she had thought to herself that he would have to stay with her as she had sacrificed her life for him. So she played her biggest role ever, the one of the victim. Her plan worked.
Terry: After he left London and Candy in such a dramatic way, Terry was determined to make something of himself rather that act as a rebel with his father's name as a back-up. His recent reconnection with his mother gave him hopes that he could as well walk in her footsteps and become a great stage actor. He would have made Candy really proud. While Candy was at school, he would become someone worthy of himself. He would mature so he could invite Candy to his side.
In New York, he started looking at theatrical groups and he found the Stanford Theatrical group that were playing Shakespearean plays which he loved. When he auditioned, the manager and director of the group thought to themselves that this young guy had some real talent and he could be a bright star of the theatre soon. So they signed him on immediately. Terry kept to himself as he was acting like he was on a mission. All his fellow actors ignored him or even disliked him for his attitude but he didn’t care. Only Susanna would seem to follow him around, which at times was annoying, but other times was quite handy as he wanted someone to practice lines frequently and Susanna was always available. After all she was polite and considerate, and she would keep compliment him and encourag him at his craft. She gave him at least some psychological boost, but he never felt anything else for her despite what the tabloids would insinuate. As far as he was concerned nothing happened and after all he hadn’t showed her any favouritism. He was naive in the ways of fatal love and blinded by his love for Candy that he didn’t realise that Susanna was walking a dangerous path. So he was really shocked when she made her feelings for him so abruptly clear, let alone hating his love, Candy. At first he was confused and then angry with himself for letting this situation fester. What could he tell Candy? Could he trust her to see his side? Candy hadn’t seen him for so long; he couldn’t cause her to be upset. He would hide it for the minute and hope that it would pass if he just ignored it. However the whole situation would bear on him and make him worried at nights. With a brief respite from his worrying the last days passed, when he was really excited for Romeo and Juliet and the fact that Candy was coming to see him. He bought her a one-way ticket so he could ask her to stay with him for good.
And then the accident happened. Susanna had lost her leg for him. Suddenly she was pressuring him along with her mother, that all this was his fault and now Terry had to stay with Susanna!!! He owed her that much at least. Terry’s personality had changed a lot because of Candy. He wasn’t inconsiderate and loud-mouthed any more, Ge didn’t desert people in their time of need. Candy had taught him that sticking to your duty was something noble. He also was a believer of one’s duty. Alas, he was always blaming his mother that she had deserted him where it was her duty as a mother to stay with her child. So he knew very well what duty meant, and hated the ones that ran away from it. That was also one of Candy’s personality characteristics that he adored. She was moving in life as if she was on her drawn path. She had let no one and nothing to affect her and her beliefs. So Terry was in front of a dilemma that was laid in front of him like a black chasm ready to engulf him. The weight in his shoulders was unbearable. A lot of things had gone through him mind. Elope with Candy, disappear, kill himself, but ultimately the thought that was taking shape in his head was no matter how he detested this action, he was to stay with Susanna. Once Candy found out the whole story, and the way that she had handed him the decision which he needed to make but couldn’t, he also really couldn’t step back from what was diced by fate for him. So he stayed with Susanna.
Candy: Why did she fall in love with Terry? When she went to St. Paul’s college in London, she was still preoccupied with Anthony’s death. Until one day she met him. She was intrigued by his strange character. Usually, she could read people and because of her good nature, sooner or later, people opened to her, trusting her with their emotions. But not this guy. He was everything she disliked. Unruly, inconsiderate, loud mouthed, vain, know it all. And above all, he was always making mocking comments at her. But what was puzzling her, was her first glimpse of him on board of Mauritania. He was crying then and seemed to her at that moment in time, through the foggy night, when everyone was jolly and merry with champagne, for him to be the loneliest man on the world. So why this change? What was he hiding? Had someone hurt him so much? But she was convinced of his good nature when he rescued her from Neil and his awful friends. She felt like she had a secret guardian angel. His mocking comments had slowly turning into a cute and provocative game of words, a game of wills. She was falling for him, without knowing it.
On that last happy summer in Scotland, she came to know the secrets of Terry. She felt that he needed her help, her presence, her love. She could give her all her undivided attention in a minute if he was asking for it. She would keep looking out for him, keeping him on the straight and narrow, because types like Terry, have so much potential in life. It would be criminal not to work on that, fulfil his dreams and be at last proud of himself because he did deserve to feel proud of himself. Candy as a young teenager, with feelings of helping those in need quite strong in her, felt for the first time that she could do anything for her Terry, to help him, to be there for him, to teach him the joys of life, to listen to his dreams, to inspire him, to love him and stay on his side forever. The one kiss they shared showed her so suddenly the depth and magnitude of her feelings for Terry, so much so that they frightened her. And so she slapped him immediately, shouting that she hated him, even though she had realised that she had found her soul mate.
When they returned to college, everything seemed normal until they were caught in the stables, with the consequence of Terry giving his place for Candy and leaving for NY in order to become someone for Candy. They were young and time was their own. Candy in the school felt that now her life laid empty without him there. So driven of feelings that she needed to find her way too, instead of learning the lady like ways of the high society, which wasn’t her cup of tea anyways. She fled with all kind of adventures in her way, back to the States. She could chase her dream while keeping an eye on her love, and his progress through life, waiting patiently until they were reunited together again.
After the unfortunate night at Terry’s play in Chicago, Candy found out there was a girl next to Terry that seemed to be linked romantically with him so feelings of jealousy started surfacing in her heart. Her strong belief in Terry, kept them at bay though. Once she received the letter and the one way ticket to Broadway, Candy was in seventh heaven, believing that the time had come to live with her love together at last, to fulfil their dreams together as a couple, to dedicate her soul and presence to her true light in her life, her Terry. When she arrived in NY full of dreams and hopes for what was waiting for her, and the happiness that was lying in front of her, she was puzzled by Terry’s nervousness, and silent pauses that seemed to cloud him. But naively and without knowing the drama unfolding behind her, she mistakenly based those signs to nerves before the big performance. After all, she hadn’t seen him for so long. Long separations enhanced expectations. He was also now a serious actor. He had his craft too that he cared so much for. Even if Terry would try to say or hide something, Candy stopped him not knowingly, with her confession of being jealous of Susanna while looking at the poster of Romeo and Juliet.
At the intermission of the play, she happened to overhear two ladies gossiping about Terry and Susanna’s situation. Her world crashed from under her feet. Immediately she decided to confront Susanna because Candy was not the kind of person that hid from difficult situations. She had too much at stake to lose anyway. She risked losing her love. She fet protective of her Terry, how he was pressured to stay with someone that he didn't love. So she ran to the hospital, only to find out that Susanna has disappeared and she was in danger of killing herself. Candy’s altruism kicked in and she tried to find her as quickly as possible. And she ded. On the roof of the hospital, a desperate Susanna was hanging from the rails ready to fall to her death. But seeing Candy there, her mind took a quick turn and she blurted to Candy that she wanted to kill herself so as not to be an obstacle to Candy’s and Terry’s happiness. Having figured out how much Candy loved Terry, she placed her hopes on Candy to push Terry into her embrace, as she has sensed that Terry was confused and unwilling to take the decision.
Truth be told though, Susanna wanted to kill herself because of Terry’s inability to love her, not because she wanted to give happiness back to Terry and Candy. Candy, believing always the best in people was unaware of Susanna’s plot. She truly believed that Susanna was ready to make the biggest sacrifice and lose her life for Terry’s happiness. And thus came to the conclusion that this woman really loved Terry deeply. As Candy’s sense of duty took centre stage, she decided that she had lost Terry.
And she realised that when Terry appeared suddenly on the roof. Without a word, and only pain in his face, he moved towards Susanna. Candy instantly feelt Terry’s agonising dilemma over the situation. She didn’t want him to suffer any more than he had too, so she found the strength to take the decision for both of them. She did see that he must have already been shattered under the weight of the fateful events so she decided to break up with him, even though she knew that she was giving up her soul mate, her happiness in life, her dreams of her own future family, forever. There was no way back and she had to walk that path alone. Her inner strength that was developing all these hard years of youth had prepared her for this, even though still..... the grief was unsurpassable. One last desperate embrace from Terry stopeped her at the stairs, and she heard him cry. She had only seen him cry for his mother on the ship so long ago. Now, it felt like a dream. So she realised there and then that Terry loved her, but he was unable to do anything about it. They gave a promise to each other to be happy.
So from the break up onwards what would be the psychological state of these 3 main characters?